As ever, I had no idea what I was setting myself up for.
The last 3 and a bit months have been ones of phenomenal transformation, and of course, beyond the realms of possibility. Needless to say, these things do still surprise me. And it appears that it is now time for me to share...
Highly intuitive, creative, fun loving, practical, empathic & willing to get stuck in whenever things had to be done, my transformation through menopause has severely tested my inner resources and personal resolve to the extreme.
Thankfully things are beginning to settle down. I'd like to say it has been a roller coaster ride, but that would be way too tame. No, these last 12 years have been akin to being the fireworks in a box full of fireworks. In some ways it would have been lovely for the whole box to go up in one go! But no, it has been one at a time. Sense of change afoot, warming, getting hotter, 'eyup what's happening here', then whooosh! Off to who knows where in a blaze of glory, followed ingloriously by a slow sinking back to earth... as a smouldering ember, ready to light the next...
The box is spent of its once resplendent charge... and not.
Oneness with the whole of life remains.
Intact and complete, just transformed.
The world and human life is still in a sorry state. I 'knew' waaaay back that the only way to have a lasting effect on life was for me to be different in it. Neither part of the problem nor part of the solution. Neither good nor bad. Neither for nor against. Neither one way or another. Just me living me as best I can from one moment to the next.
The beauty of all of this is that I am not alone. There is a collective force alive for everything we all hold dear... natural forces, ancestral spirits and our shared materiality... it's all there living through, with and within each and every one of us... oh yes, and we all know this... and live this... as best we can... x